Affirmation

I release others from all blame that I assign them. They only play roles in my life that help me become more awake and aware of who I really am.

Day 3...

So sad right now. The urge to email him or call him is so strong right now. Man, I cannot wait until I am beyond this point. I really can't. I wonder if he is going to call me about Destin. Of course my brain is already rationalizing going with him. And if I am honest with myself, I would go. I mean it Destin! So I hope he doesn't call me at all about it. I really hope he doesn't. I don't think there is any hope for him and I. I really don't think he is good for me. He isn't.

Day 3...end

Today was so so. My emotions were really really high.. Got the cd, was going to go out with Kim, but I just can't right now. It's too hard. I am really missing him really bad. And that in and of itself makes me mad. I shouldn't be missing him. I really shouldn't be. But more tomorrow...

Day 3

Well, I got up this morning. Decided to go to Best Buy and get the Lalah Hathaway cd. Almost broke down in there. But left and got out before it hit. Got a call from a realtor today about his TH. Just gave him his number and name for her to call him without using me. So hopefully he will be able to work that for himself. Almost bought a break up book, but decided against because I know what I need to do. Just not talk to him. And time. That's all thats going to get me through this. More later I am sure...