OK...so today wasn't too bad at all. Woke up and went to check on the storage place to make sure I could get in and of course I left the key! But it was ok. My landlord said she will put my things into another house for me and I can get it over the weekend. Going to see if my uncle can help me. Sony texted me today. First one "Good Morning" 2. Can you let me know the outcome of that hit and run case when it comes out?" 3. How r u doing? 4. Nose and throat still icky. And the kicker: It's sinuses. I forgot to take that pill b4 bed. Plus I gotta flu shot on tues. I'm listening to neyo right now. Thought of u. Hmmph...I replied to everything except that Thought of you. Whatever. Now that know the signs of narcissist...there is no way I am going to fall into the trap. So far so good. He then called me and we talked about the case and that's all. I think he said he was going to call me from his desk or for me to call him...either way I didn't call him and he didn't call me. So it's all good. I then just got off the phone with my two Musketeers about a Goth on FB. Fun times!

OK. My life has been turned upside down again, but for once I am going to take responsibility for my actions. I lost my job in August...the one I was constantly complaining about. Sony and I are once again on the outs. And I have moved back in with my mother. This past Sunday was an awful day. I just cried and cried because I asked Sony to help me keep my place and he stated No. Over and over again. I sat there in his house for about 5 hours begging him to help me and he said he couldn't because he doesn't trust me. He said I left him too many times and I told him he never did anything for me therefore he will "own" that position. He told me I was an evil and manipulative person. I was crushed. He told me I used to be this sweet and happy person.

Now once I stopped crying and looked at the situation. I realized Sony was right. I did use to be really happy and had this great outlook on life and love and I want that back. It's not completely his fault. I mean, I have no come to know that he is a low level narcissist and I was just his fix...that's why Sony isn't getting any calls or texts from me. I won't disappear or change my number, I will do the Fade to Black. All these years I have been wanting him to do it...but it's been me who needs to do it. And I am going to conciously make decisions to change my life. I am at the bottom right now...no money, job, or place to live. I can really only go up right now...God Willing.