Day 5

The day is coming the close and I have to say it wasn't too shabby. I got my ear plugs and I made taco soup. So, it wasn't too bad. I was going to turn X's clothes into the Goodwill and then mail him the tax forms but on my way there I decided not to. I have to go 60 days without ANY contact with him whatsoever. None. So I will do it in November. I am supposed to hook up with Evelyn tomorrow. I am kind of hoping she doesn't call and I can go by myself. But if she does call it's all good. I am going to the exhibit and maybe to the Grant Park Festival. Just so I can get out of the house. I am missing him of course, but it really is for the best. It really truly is. Well I may have more later...

Day 5

Today it is raining. I love it. Downpours are so calming. Well I didn't sleep well at all last night. Erin and Mom stay up soooo late. I HAVE to get ear plugs today or I won't be able to function. Have to. I also came up with some more reasons why I need to be happy with this decision. X isn't a good person right now. He never returned that money from Destin. Never did. He claims good things have been happening since he kept it and then tried to rationalize keeping it when we were going to come again. How can anything good happen when you are doing something wrong? His rationale is so wrong. All I am doing for him is praying that's all. On the off chance that he does call me, he will hear Kelly Clarkson's Already Gone. I will get through this. I will!

Let's see what the day brings!